Wednesday, September 01, 2010

I Don't Know What This Looks Like

Tonight was the open house/meet-the-teacher at Community Christian School, where I will be teaching Secondary English on a part-time basis.  As I watched the students giggling together, piling supplies into their lockers, and running from room to room, I had to take a few deep breaths. 

This is really happening.  These are my students.  I am their English teacher. 

There's a part of me that is thrilled.  Standing in front of students each day is energizing to me, and nothing compares to a lively discussion about truth, beauty, or the way a powerful poem makes you feel.  But there is another side of me that is tired before I've even taught one lesson.  I don't know how this will flesh out -- this working and being a mom and a wife and a friend and....*sigh*  The Hats of a Woman.

But I know I'm supposed to do this.  I know it in that deep-gut place where you feel His Voice telling you to move, to speak, to act.

So I will teach.  And I will still be a mom and a wife and a friend and all those other roles that make me who I am.  I just have no idea right now how those pieces will all fit together.  My prayer is that I will have the grace to let myself be "good enough."  I don't have to be perfect in all these roles. 

I think I'll go make that last line into a poster...

4 comments:

Doug said...

you cahn do eeiitt!!!

anne said...

Loved seeing you in the Mrs. Reid role last night :)! You will be fantastic. My H.S. English teacher wasn't nearly as cool as you... nor was her room :)!! Praying you find a way to enjoy this new season amongst all the adjustments!

Anonymous said...

Doug is right.....you have what it takes because you won't do it alone. There will be a lot of prayers going with you and He will be by your side. Just make sure you ask for help when you need it! :)
Mom

moms2favs said...

You will do great!!! And all your hats suit you very well.